I don't know about you, but I begin many of my mornings with a thin plastic film over my eyes. Not physically, of course, but much worse.
My inner thoughts wake up long before my body actually gets out of bed. Sometimes those thoughts act like my personal secretary, metaphorically pulling back the curtains and discussing today's agenda. (I wish it would at least have the decency to bring breakfast in bed, but no.)
Other times my inner thoughts wake me up with a different docket. This program is far more damaging to my psyche. It has to do with my self-image, how I see myself. It could be a number of my faults, small or large, that this cruel 'secretary' stands before me, usually picking a specific 'outfit' from my winter closet for me to wrap myself in, even in the heat of Spring.
Does this ever happen to you, or am I all alone? Waking up with negative image self-talk? (By the way, that's one of the 'secretary's' most used items on my agenda - "you are alone in this")
That's when the thin, plastic film comes out and lays across the corneas of my eyes, like thick dusty contact lenses. The fuzzy film of a true self-image character beating. So, by the time I actually open my eyes, I can't register the sky being as blue as it actually is. The lime green beauty of the Spring leaves on the trees looks distant and blurry. A dull haze falls over the day before I even brush my teeth.
If it were up to this accusatory voice inside me, I would stay in this funk all day long. However, there is a stronger voice that has a word or two to say about my view of the day. It is a powerful voice, but it is never a bully. A dependable, loyal friend who speaks the truth to me in love whispers patiently.
This inner voice says, "You are new every morning. Because I Iove you and am completely devoted to giving you second (and third and fourth, ad infinitum) chances, you have a choice of what to 'wear' today as your outlook. "Yay!", I say loudly in my thought conversation. I want to go with You today! You seem much more full of life and light.
I choose You.
The film rises away revealing a sparkling morning. I can trust this Voice.
I see so much more clearly now.
John 9: 37-38
37 Jesus said, “You have now seen him; in fact, He is the one speaking with you.”
38 Then the man said, “Lord, I believe,” and he worshiped Him.
22 The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; His mercies never come to an end;
23 they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.